Anxiety and panic ran my life for a long time, trampling and stampeding on my heart with no remorse.
My heart would race uncontrollably as I sobbed on my bed, clenching onto what once was my favorite deep purple quilt with raised flowers. As I gasped for air, I spiraled deeper into feeling confused, helpless and broken.
I was drowning in my own pool of tears.
The farther I sunk, the more drained and depleted I became.
Life didn’t always feel worth living.
Fortunately, my therapist at the time was able to offer me support and soothe me with her warm and gentle voice, reminding me to breathe and that I’m not crazy.
My panic attacks were often triggered from feeling misunderstood, alone and out of control.
With years of deep inner-healing work, I embodied love and compassion towards my anxiety and panic.
Rather than reject myself, I learned to accept when I was in a fear based state, constantly giving myself the permission slip to feel whatever was showing up for me.
I learned to look at my fear, anxiety and panic as a gift to be unwrapped.
Inside, I found the true essence of all that is ME!
Though counterintuitive, accepting and loving the parts of yourself that seem scary, ugly, crazy, etc. is the gateway to healing and releasing them.
When you beat yourself up for experiencing anxiety or fear and tell yourself that you’re not anxious and fearful, even if your mind tells you that you are, you are more likely to stay stuck in the vicious cycle of feeling anxious and fearful.
You can’t expect to shift into a joyful, loving and peaceful state by invalidating your own experience.
If someone else tells you that you’re feeding into a label or story when you openly share that you’re feeling anxious, fearful, panicking etc, let them know that you only become designer by wearing your fucking label like a boss and rewriting your narrative only starts with full acceptance of the one you currently have!
Comment below if you’re willing to take a leap of fear 👇
